Day Ninteen

Hi..she says rather sheepishly. I'm feeling disappointed in myself, I only made it to yoga twice last week - my minimum was going to be three times per week. Maybe I'm pushing myself too hard or expecting too much but all of a sudden I feel like the weight of the world has landed on my shoulders.

I find myself looking longingly at cafe workers thinking - wow imagine if I had a job that didn't come home with me? I'm finding it hard to make it through this busy period without crashing all over the place - I feel totally fatigued and really grumpy. Breathe, breathe...this is not forever, I keep trying to remember.

I don't want to go to yoga tonight - I want to  go to sleep.

I will go, (thanks to your messages of support) and a boot up the bum from the boyfriend. I hope I don't spend my entire time there thinking about the work I have to do when I get home! I'm deciding right now that I will go and it will be great - the end!

Day Twelve

Gosh how will I figure out the Day number when I get passed October!

Yoga was again the star of the show this evening. Although might I take this time to remind you all to ALWAYS remember to wear appropriate clothing....my top kept slipping down and I found it hard to think about my breathing whilst I continually readjusted myself, avoiding being branded a 'flasher'!

I found it easier to GO tonight (progress!!!) - the less you think about the whole thing the more you find yourself there sunddenly on your mat, before you can say samasasakuraraaaazz (ok so I made that up...how do you spell yoga pose names anyway?).
One great thing that Sue said in one of her classes last week and I'll share it with you because I think it's perfect for people who suffer from any type of low mood stuff; heck it's just perfect full stop.She was referring to some yoga practictioner I think...and I'm sorry but I forget his name (see I was concentrating on my breathing after all!), he said that he never regretted a yoga practice but often regretted the times he hadn't got out his mat. Great huh?

This week will be very busy for me, which is why I'm blogging so late!I promise right here, on this computer screen, to get to my four practices, despite the busyness. Yoga, I am starting to think, has opened up more time (for me). I feel like I have a small pocket every second day which is mine...imagine that...a whole hour and a bit to yourself. A whole period of 'you time' where you don't beat yourself up, berate yourself for what a crappy person you are, or ruminate on your faults and short-comings.How lucky am I?!
I think it (yoga) has also helped (boys look away) with my girly cramps too...which are normally totally horrid. It will be interesting to see how this progresses..I will keep you in the loop (cringe)!
If you are reading this and NOT currently practicing yoga, can you do me a favour? Wake up tomorrow and do some nice stretches, no matter what they are I gurantee your body will feel good and your mind will thank you for it :)....too preachy? NAH....do it for me?!

BG x (thanks in advance for those stretches you do tomorrow!
P.S - also wanted to say a huge thank you to all the comments I am receiving - I love them!

Day Nine

So I woke up feeling like I had little tiny pixies inside my kidneys, jumping up and down shouting "Hey Brave Girl we've come to play, we like to jump up and down on your organs, they are so bouncy..."

No I haven't gone mad, well not yet anyway, just feeling a bit (quite a lot) like blurgh! The joys of being a girl. I did however, and I hope you're impressed, don my yoga regalia, drive through the drizzly cold day to arrive at Yoga Tapas to find I had gotten the wrong time and the class was actually on in the evening. DOH!
I have a function tonight so I will have to get there again tomorrow. That will make my total for the week three practices. I think that's not too bad for a first week - do you?

This week I have had the pleasure of working with some great people and it has made all the difference. I enjoy being busy, although there is a balance...sometimes I get too busy and things become too much but right now I'm just a good amount of busy. My job situ is slightly precarious and not always springy (like my kidneys) and this adds to things when I'm down. Work is really hard to find at the moment and I am grateful that I have a little to help pay the bills but mostly keep me busy.

The contrast between this busyness and yoga makes the yoga even more potent I think?

I hope you are warm and dry and free of any earthquakes or tsunamis (or pixie people) where you are.

BG x